Hi,
I came here asking for help because I don't know what form of harassment this is or if it is even harassment.
When I was around 8 years old, I shared a room with my older sister, who, at the time, was 13 years old. We had recently had the house built for us and my family and I obviously moved in.
Almost every night, my sister would force me to do disgusting things like taking my clothes off or kiss her but with a cloth of some sort acting as a divider between our lips... She would make me act as the 'man', and she would act as the 'lady'.
I am now 15 years old, and she is 21 years old. I am a lesbian, and she is totally against that. She recently found out that I am a lesbian, and I guess she is in denial about it. She is not going to tell anyone in my family, as everyone else is also against it. Whenever something bad happens between us, she will go, "I wonder what kind of crap you do and how sick you are." Obviously, she is referring to my orientation.
I feel that I am a useless person because of what she did to me. I don't know if she remembers it all, but she most likely does if I remember it. We never, ever talked about it, and I don't remember when it all stopped. Perhaps when she moved to a boarding school for a short period of time. I was around 9-10 years old at the time.
It all came back to me recently and I haven't been able to brush it away like I did, before. I don't know what to do, and I don't know what kind of harassment this is, or if it is even harassment.
Thank you. |
